Take a deep breath...the apocalypse hasn't started or at least it hasn't ended!!!
When I was an honor roll student at Chico State ;) studying religion and history I learned that every culture throughout time has this fear that "The End is Nigh!"
They are right of course.... The end is always nigh, there is always a bad guy, an outside threat, a tsunami, an injustice that seems to or is literally threatening our lives.
Even our living threatens our lives cause each breath we take is one step closer to death.
The beautiful thing is that life still goes on and it always will. It will be much different then it was before, we don't have any dragons, unicorns or dinosaurs anymore.....not to mention all the species that have gone extinct since I've been alive. And still new species are being discovered and new planets that are likely to sustain life.
So you can see how I learned to love the Apocalypse....I was tottaly geared up for the Y2K thing and 2012. I think it was mostly due to my idealistic vision of a utopia I believe is meant for us here on earth, this belief coupled with a fear based morbid desire to see this unfair, unjust, environmentally and socially destructive "reality" construct burn to the ground!!!!
I stocked up and read up on bushcraft, survival skills, self defense, I saved seeds and planted a garden, I worried about water catchment and purification. I obsessed with surviving the "economic/environmental/peak oil Collapse/the atomic holocaust/ the illuminati New worldOrder" and/or whatever other drama was outside me that I had no control over.... I was so hell bent that my kids and I would survive it.... That I almost didn't make it through the preparations, I had stopped living, I wasnt present and worst of all I lived in fear and it made me fat and sick...very sick...I thought I was dying and I was...I was killing myself with fear.
I healed from this by becoming more spiritual and less physical. I looked deeply into my heart and soul, I looked for and found teachers and inspirations. I learned that I'm not a body having a spiritual experience I AM a Spirit having a Body experience, that I am part of The One Whole Reality and I am here to learn lessons, my lesson in this life specifically is to take care of myself through stress and change :-)
Through this journey I have moved from believing that Fukishima is the death bell for the whole planet, to releasing judgement and fear, embracing each day I have, each breath I get, each pleasure this life affords me and I'm even trying to look at it as if... perhaps beyond my little brain, beyond my solitary experience of the whole, there is still a greater picture in which I don't know the outcome, maybe the radiation will turn me into a super heroine, I'll finally be able to fly and I'll use my powers for good to make the world match my fantasy!
Maybe it's all for the best?
and maybe it's not?
I do know that being afraid doesn't do anything but block my life force from flowing, blocks me from thinking of solutions, keeps me from living and rushes me towards dying. I don't really know if "maybe it's all for the best" is true but I do know it makes me feel better about things I can't control.
Speaking of things I can't control!!!!
I'm divorced and my kids go to public school (I don't want to get into it here...just read divorced with 50/50 custody)
Anyway so at school and their dads and anywhere else.. Like everytime we eat out, it's Highly likely that they/we are eating Gmo's. I cant control this all the time. I really can't. I do limit it as much as possible and pray that our healthy lifestyle and keeping our PH in balance will be enough to keep us enjoying life until monsantos reign is done. And it will end.
Fukushima and Monsanto are such big issues that they themselves are a part of the major impetus for change, they are the bubonic plague of our lifetime.
Our consciousness is rising and we are unstoppable, change is guarenteed!
When we stop fearing change whether good or bad we free up energy in our lives to live fully, to create a better tomorrow by living a fully present, compassionate and loving today.
Because each experience we have in this body is an opportunity to learn our life lesson. And maybe....
IT'S ALL FOR THE BEST!
And if not....
The sun will explode one day anyway and all that we know will be vaporized and recycled into a whole new experience in the universe.
I'm sure that will be for the best when it does happen ;)
I'm grateful for Fukushima and Monsanto for waking up the world, and I love the Apocalypse because it taught me to live!
Just remember its all for the best :-)
What does God, Mayo anf typos have in common? Well from my perspective they are all great examples of words that everyone has a different meaning of, or level of "charge"..
To me God is the eternal non dying mystery, the creative force in the universe the non duality from which duality comes. I find god in math, science, nature,every religious text and spiritual philosophy, and most importantly I find the creator in this daily sacredly mundane existence. The hug of my children, the shine in the eyes of those I love, the sweet thoughtfulness that make up the people I know.
When I say god,I'm not trying to convert you to my religion, I'm not excluding your god, I'm including it all, I'm including your god or non god "I only believe in Science" attitude that my lovely daughter has as well.
When I say god, I pray that you hear the highest good, the inspiration of love that resonates with you.
I appreciate you allowing me the freedom to love everyone's interpretation of god. That's why I write god as Ggod/desS because it is more than we are capable of knowing and nature shows us it takes two to tango aka the polarity that is in a cosmic song and dance of union.
And MAYO? WTF?!?
Yes folks mayo!
I've been vegan, raw vegan, paleo, sad, macrobiotic, Atkins, south beach, cabbage soup diet, rice crispy treats and diet coke even! But boy oh boy or Good Lord does it make me crazy when I read an online recipe and people put in the ingredients
*mayo or vegan equivalent.
Or whatever "mayo" that is acceptable to the particular food cult page I'm getting the recipe from.
Seriously people I live with a man who LOVES miracle whip!!!! (Withholding pukey face and gagging noises...barely)
If we can have peace in this house with miracle whip, veganaise, and best foods coexisting in harmony it is living proof we can have peace on earth!!!
In my recipes I post I'm just putting mayo! If you are anti mayo use mustard or go dry! Your grown, I'm sure you know what you like!
I trust you to figure it out ;)
ndA Typos? (hehe)
I'm so guilty of typos and misspellings! They are all over my website and I know it drives some people so crazy that they probably can't veen get through ym blog stops ;)
Ok I'll stop :-)
I'm sorry to those of us who get spastic over spelling mistakes and irate over improper punctuations!
I really am sorry!
I admit that when people type Ebonics I really wanna smack them (hey I'm not perfect I'm struggling for the appearance of sanity like the rest of us!). But once again if I can live with miracle whip in the house I can tolerate Ebonics fb updates and ims.... Tolerance is the first step to peace. (Deep breath)
So please when you see mispelled words, misplaced punctuation or the holy grail of English major mental torture.. there/ their etc...know that I am incredibly busy. I have 2 kids who are my top priority,my honey, my health, house, garden, and my Mission to embody peace in the midst of chaos, to model compassion, acceptance and tolerance, to imperfectly walk the path to peace even when it includes miracle whip and Ebonics. Know that I am always doing my very best and that this is a one woman show! A one woman show that is most often administered from my iPhone, a real show, a real person, with real imperfections; Non committal Ggod/desS loving, misspellings, miracle whip and Ebonics snubbin/ despising and apparently intolerant of intolerance ;-)
I am loving myself with my Perfect imperfections and I hope and pray I am inspiring you to liberate yourself from your societal and self imposed limitations. When we love and accept ourselves where we are, we instantly remove the obstacles to changing and growing (like looking at a plant realizing its Dry and needs water) we arent judging the plant for not growing we just look for the ways to assist in the processes of change :-) Everyday I am doing the little steps that lead to the big picture, I might trip, or step backwards or look funny doing it but I keep on moving and so should you!
So please please forgive me, celebrate my obvious imperfections, read your version of god and mayo and overlook my typos,or volunteer to fix Em if it bothers you that much ;)
With tolerance, evol and light,
Ps. if you want the recipe that inspired the whole blog and handle the typos drop a comment on this blog and ill post today's lunch "Curried sesame Tofu pate" I promise it has no Miracle whip in it
I love you!
I love your smile, the quirky way you laugh.
I love your dreams and aspirations, your striving for the light.
I love that ache inside you that makes you cry when things aren't right.
I love the "imperfections" that make you YOU.
I love the way you've changed your world and changed mine TOO.
I love that I've never seen your face or held your hand and still we share a part in the divine plan.
I love that deep inside me and all around Invisible to the eye, is the spark of life, the drop of the Ggod/desS, the creative mystery, the never ending flow.
I love that we are ONE, even if we don't "know".
I love "you" the reflection of the divine,
I love the light in you that matches mine.
So I alluded to the next levels of healing that I am working on. Well today is day two of the beginning of the new health regime.
First phase is to follow the instructions of my Guru Dr MaryJo Cravatta. I am taking her adios ama and healing within herbal formulas. The adios ama works on releasing toxins from undigested food and emotions. The healing within is very powerful and helps quickly and deeply remove the old cellular memory and expiriences. These are powerful formulas! I took both before I can defiantly say they both work. I'm taking the healing within at night because it can facilitate tearful releases an I got things to do!! So when I take it at night I just have crazy dreams and release that way :-)
In addition to this I have also decided that I will be creating a specialized program for myself that incorporates all the knowledge I have gained. I will do a Vlog to monitor my progress.
There is much to do and I am still on the road to healing :-)
Taking it gentle, slow, loving and compassionate with myself. True healing and lifestyle change take some commitment, time and support.
So here is to the journey of healing and learning my life lesson.
Much love and light to all!
I am a passionate humanitarian on a quest to create a beautiful, peaceful life that is available to the whole world!