Take a deep breath...the apocalypse hasn't started or at least it hasn't ended!!!
When I was an honor roll student at Chico State ;) studying religion and history I learned that every culture throughout time has this fear that "The End is Nigh!"
They are right of course.... The end is always nigh, there is always a bad guy, an outside threat, a tsunami, an injustice that seems to or is literally threatening our lives.
Even our living threatens our lives cause each breath we take is one step closer to death.
The beautiful thing is that life still goes on and it always will. It will be much different then it was before, we don't have any dragons, unicorns or dinosaurs anymore.....not to mention all the species that have gone extinct since I've been alive. And still new species are being discovered and new planets that are likely to sustain life.
So you can see how I learned to love the Apocalypse....I was tottaly geared up for the Y2K thing and 2012. I think it was mostly due to my idealistic vision of a utopia I believe is meant for us here on earth, this belief coupled with a fear based morbid desire to see this unfair, unjust, environmentally and socially destructive "reality" construct burn to the ground!!!!
I stocked up and read up on bushcraft, survival skills, self defense, I saved seeds and planted a garden, I worried about water catchment and purification. I obsessed with surviving the "economic/environmental/peak oil Collapse/the atomic holocaust/ the illuminati New worldOrder" and/or whatever other drama was outside me that I had no control over.... I was so hell bent that my kids and I would survive it.... That I almost didn't make it through the preparations, I had stopped living, I wasnt present and worst of all I lived in fear and it made me fat and sick...very sick...I thought I was dying and I was...I was killing myself with fear.
I healed from this by becoming more spiritual and less physical. I looked deeply into my heart and soul, I looked for and found teachers and inspirations. I learned that I'm not a body having a spiritual experience I AM a Spirit having a Body experience, that I am part of The One Whole Reality and I am here to learn lessons, my lesson in this life specifically is to take care of myself through stress and change :-)
Through this journey I have moved from believing that Fukishima is the death bell for the whole planet, to releasing judgement and fear, embracing each day I have, each breath I get, each pleasure this life affords me and I'm even trying to look at it as if... perhaps beyond my little brain, beyond my solitary experience of the whole, there is still a greater picture in which I don't know the outcome, maybe the radiation will turn me into a super heroine, I'll finally be able to fly and I'll use my powers for good to make the world match my fantasy!
Maybe it's all for the best?
and maybe it's not?
I do know that being afraid doesn't do anything but block my life force from flowing, blocks me from thinking of solutions, keeps me from living and rushes me towards dying. I don't really know if "maybe it's all for the best" is true but I do know it makes me feel better about things I can't control.
Speaking of things I can't control!!!!
I'm divorced and my kids go to public school (I don't want to get into it here...just read divorced with 50/50 custody)
Anyway so at school and their dads and anywhere else.. Like everytime we eat out, it's Highly likely that they/we are eating Gmo's. I cant control this all the time. I really can't. I do limit it as much as possible and pray that our healthy lifestyle and keeping our PH in balance will be enough to keep us enjoying life until monsantos reign is done. And it will end.
Fukushima and Monsanto are such big issues that they themselves are a part of the major impetus for change, they are the bubonic plague of our lifetime.
Our consciousness is rising and we are unstoppable, change is guarenteed!
When we stop fearing change whether good or bad we free up energy in our lives to live fully, to create a better tomorrow by living a fully present, compassionate and loving today.
Because each experience we have in this body is an opportunity to learn our life lesson. And maybe....
IT'S ALL FOR THE BEST!
And if not....
The sun will explode one day anyway and all that we know will be vaporized and recycled into a whole new experience in the universe.
I'm sure that will be for the best when it does happen ;)
I'm grateful for Fukushima and Monsanto for waking up the world, and I love the Apocalypse because it taught me to live!
Just remember its all for the best :-)
Ok here it goes! I, like so many internet savy individuals am starting a blog! I hope that unlike the majority of blog operaters I dont fall of the wagon and leave the empty internet alone without my awe inspiring entries. ;)
My goal here is to chonicle my quest for a peaceful way of life that is accesible to everyone. A way of life that I have been researching and expiermenting with for the past 15 years. I have lots of knowledge...but alas I am imperfect and have often lacked the discipline to stick to it..although I will say that I am pretty darn good at getting back up on the proverbial horse as it were...and I am always striving to do better...to start again.
So here it is my new start. My focus is on a peaceful way of life that is HOLISTIC. For me that means YOGA, Vegan Diet, Permaculture Gardening,Right livelhood and a sustainable and frugal lifestlye (eco consumerism).
All of these things together have formed a thought process in my head and I have termed it being an eco monk.
Because in order to have peace in the world I must "LIVE SIMPLY, THAT OTHERS MAY SIMPLY LIVE!).
I have a theroy that I will gain many rewards from the fullfillment of these goals..
More time, money and friends!
Lose weight, reduce my arthritis, allergies, horrible painful menstruations, skin rashes, headaches..etc
The most important reason for living this lifestyle is because I am aware that my actions directly effect every person and the whole of our environment.
I am aware that I have been conditioned by immature souls, through the use of fear and manipulation so that I feed into thier reality and their system.
Well Folks the BUCK stops here!
Im voting with my dollars...and I will no longer feed the systems/people/politics that oppress and abuse our beautiful home and its wonderous inhabitants.
My focus/time/energy/MONEY and resources are only going into the above mentioned areas because that is how peace is made..by shining our lights bright on the paths to peace and turning or backs on the manipulative, greedy, easy and seductive paths to assured destruction.
I know that I can only control me and what I do and I know that when I have given in to the dark side I am always the one that suffers while the spiritualy blind prosper.
So here it is my conciousness expierment..
I am a passionate humanitarian on a quest to create a beautiful, peaceful life that is available to the whole world!