Honoring my Moon time.

I have had "women's issues" since I was a girl. Since my first moontime the monthly visit from ole Aunt Flo has never been a pleasure. I had horrible cramps, tea cup size blood clots, severe pain and sometimes even cold sweats, diarrhea and vomiting.

As time went on my problem worsened, I was given birth control of various kinds(which only gave me all the listed side effects and usually the worst one in my opinion was the constant bleeding)these pills were " to help regulate me", dr's wanted to give me blood transfusions because I was so anemic and many times was told I needed a hysterectomy.

I had my first child in 2002 at the age of 26, and my son followed 15 months later. Both births were emergency c -Sections.
My problems continued after my babies were born, in some ways worse than before I had the c-sections. I did finally try an endometrial oblation, in which a tubal was also performed. The oblation failed (the tubal took) and I was left with a chopped up and burned up uterus.

My periods averaged 7-10 days with the first day bleeding up to 2 ounces, severe pain and explosive social issues.

I broke down once again in February 2012 and tried the Mirena iud. I bleed from the day it was put in untill the day it was finnally removed. I actually went in twice to have it removed. It ended up being impaled in me. I was given a month before i could get the ultra sound done, in which time I prayed, visualized and put all my energy into dislodging the iud. I had to have the ultra sound to identify where it was lodged and whether surgery would be required to remove it. During the ultra sound I saw what looked like a baby head, but was most likely a fibroid or other irratation caused from the ill placed iud. The good news is it the iud was now dislodged and close to the cervic aka the exit!

Whoo Hoo no surgery required!

So back to the women's clinic and a mighty yank (pain) and it was free of my body! I bleed excessively for another 3 months after that, at times soaking through 2 overnight pads in an hour.

During this time I had struggled with my ideas of my future, fear and insecruity, issues with relationships, issues with self care, past abuse issues, denial of my clairvoyant gifts and so on and so on.

The success of the visualization on the iud lead me to abandon my fear mentality, to disregard my thoughts to become a nurse (for financial security) and instead to pursue my dreams of being a holistic healer.

I began healing myself with passion and grace. I used every trick, tip, herb and magic I had ever heard of or that someone told me about. I did the work on all levels of my being! I worked through my past issues, my fears, my insecurities, I faced death and I finnally learned to live.

I learned to live without coffee, dairy, wheat and most importantly STRESS! I learned to put my needs first, to love myself and fall in love with myself everyday, I learned to make my healing a priority. I learned that Ayurveda really worked for me because it helped me get out of my own way. Dr MaryJo Cravatta gave me herbs and diet and a meditation mantra. I followed faithfully and did castor oil packs everyday, I nourished my body with supplements, nutrition and love.
I used my mind to heal me and my body followed.

It's been Four months now that my periods have been 5 days long, the first two days still suck but not half as bad as it used to be. I am so happy for this 5 day long moon cycle.

I am so grateful that I have made healing my daily priority. It's a never ending quest. I am blessed to be my own boss, I am so proud of myself for taking those first two days off of work, to have the freedom to reschedule my clients so that I can take the time to heal and release so that I can be filled again, filled to overflowing that I may be able to give.

I am so grateful to my friends/clients that are flexible and understanding of my need to honor my moontime. I've yet to have anyone be an ass about it and you know
What even if someone does, that's on them they can find someone else to see for healing because this healer knows that to heal yourself makes you a better healer and to provide us all an example of self care is truly healing.

I am grateful and blessed and as always walking the path to abundant holistic health.

Each moon cycle another opportunity to practice compassion and self healing.

With much love and light!
Namaste
Amber